Tuesday, September 9, 2008

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A house without gas and electricity
By Gregory Hartzler-Miller

In the spring of 2008, my wife and I were hashing over strategies to cut our living expenses, and I made a proposal that was admittedly extreme by middle class neighborhood standards. Though it was an enthusiastic proposal, likely influenced by the sight of yellow daffodil blossoms, I offered it with serious intent: "Let's turn off the gas and electric." Without guile, sarcasm or discernible desire for a divorce, she replied, "Go ahead, but do it in a house of your own." That shocked me at first, but a seed had been sown.
By summer, I had purchased and taken up residence in an $18,000 East Baltimore row-house that came with a new roof, and a dry basement. It was a great deal! The typical house in that price range had a caved-in roof. The price of this house was so low due mainly to neighborhood conditions. Half the houses on the block were boarded-up, and there was maybe one other owner occupant. And then, the scary part: Teen aged boys in the street betting on quarter tosses, and talking tough, and wrestling, and shouting out, "Sheryl, Bad Ass," their brand names for the crack and heroine stashed (along with guns) in the alleys, in vacant houses and on rooftops.
An older neighbor gave me a word of advice that served me well: "Mind your own business, and you'll be OK. Don't call the police unless you personally are harmed." He explained that "the boys" will not mess with an older white guy who lives there because they don't want police attention. Thankfully, the police passed through regularly and made their presence known. I kept my distance from the boys on the street, acknowledging them when we crossed paths with a curt, respectful nod and moving on. My business was to experiment in living without gas and electricity, and as it turned out, I had chosen a fine neighborhood for that.
Two doors down a bantam rooster crowed in the morning, and whenever it felt like crowing. That always made me chuckle inside. It reminded me of my freedom from middle class neighborhood constraints. No need to replace the front door with a bullet hole shot through it. I was free to patch it with a glued-on odd-shaped piece of stained glass. "The houses don't all have to look alike," said a neighbor whose house was wildly decorated with odd tiles and beads and a mural she had painted.
My back yard was my paradise. I covered it in Dutch White Clover which grows only four to eight inches tall, chokes out crab grass and most importantly, needs no mowing. I left little hills and valleys in the terrain to improve retention of the rain water that flowed freely off the roof (the house had no gutter). Two of the main "weeds" that came up along with the clover were edible: Amaranth, and Lamb's Ear, food blown in by the wind, manna! I ate them straight from the ground, much to the friendly amusement of my neighbors. When an elephant ear plant popped up, another so called weed that grows at a prodigious rate and sprouts heart shaped leaves one to two feet wide, I let it grow, as many of my neighbors had done. Morning glories climbed in angles along the boundary fences, and when the reached the top of the fence, they bloomed with light blue petals like kisses from the divine. When I planted vegetable starts, the kids with the pet rooster gladly shared some rooster droppings for my use as fertilizer.
Several of the neighbors air-dried their laundry, so there was no need to feel embarrassed about having my cotton underwear out for all to see (although I still feel a bit embarrassed). I bet some of the neighbors washed their clothes by hand too. Hand-washing laundry was easier than I expected. I would toss them in the bathtub with some liquid detergent to soak in cold water, then walk around on them to agitate, then give each item a couple of lift and crunches by hand, then rinse. And to my surprise, the clothes came out smelling fresh and looking clean.
Without electric lights and fans, I naturally situated my chair right up against the open window where, perched cat-like, there was plenty of sunlight for reading, a view of the back yard, and almost always at least a hint of breeze. I worried that the neighbor next door might think I was sitting near the window to spy on her business. When I apologetically explained to her why I sat there, she laughed, "That's no problem," she said, "A lot of us like to sit near our windows." Of course, what was I thinking?
I found that a damp wash cloth draped across around the neck helped with keeping cool. A lot of the men were doing the same. Once, in a public bathroom at the Northeastern Market, three men at sinks were each dampening their wash clothes before going back out into the heat. Why would anyone do without?
The best way to cool off when I came home from a bike ride or a walk all drenched in sweat, was to take a slow cold-water sponge bath. With proper attention to technique, I got clean. And after such a chilly wash, I felt cool from the inside out.
Appreciative of the limits of living without gas and electric service, a neighbor offered to let me use her stove for cooking. It was a kind offer, one that she had extended to other neighbors during involuntary stints of such deprivation I'm sure, but I had another plan. With a little research on raw food diets, it had come to my attention that if grains are soaked for a day, they are ready to eat. No high-heat necessary! So, for my basic diet, I concocted a mix that included whole groat grain, flax seed, sunflower seeds in the shell, dried alfalfa, Cayenne pepper, and a clove of garlic. I ate it with a fresh tomato or a carrot, especially wonderful when they came from a nearby community garden that welcomed me into their fold. The grain mix was not delicious, but it was nutritious, my intestines loved it, and if I waited till I was hungry enough, and ate it slowly, meditatively, it was palatable.
I was elated much of the time with a invigorating sense of "beating the system." I visited my wife on weekends, and during the week I was living BG&E free. Earnings from a mere eight hour a week bakery job, enable me to balance my budget (except for health insurance). The budget included my interest-only house payment of $90, such incidentals as window screens, and clothes pins, my basic diet, occasional trips to the tea and pastry shop, and even new work shoes. I also paid for a new back door, which brings me to how I sold the place.
The door was practically unusable. A year prior, police had knocked it down in a drug raid, which led to the imprisonment of the prior owner, which led to the foreclosure of the property. Neighbors came in and took what they needed from the place until the owner of a house next door who wanted to limit the damage took it upon himself to tack the door back up.
One day, I spotted a carpenter across the back alley replacing a similar door, and I asked if he could do mine too. He not only fixed the door, he also invited an investor he knew to walk through the place. Impressed by features I had not needed, such features as new central heat and an updated electrical system, the investor made an offer I couldn't refuse: $40,000, the bank's initial asking price before they had marked it down for quick sale. (For those calculating profits, after closing costs, first as a seller and then as a buyer, and after %15 capital gains taxes, the net came to about $16,000.) It felt like winning a high stakes gamble, or how I would imagine it.
Now I'm trying to play it cool, and resist the impulse -- the strong, visceral impulse I feel -- to quickly risk the winnings on another extreme lifestyle adventure. I am enjoying being back with my wife in our middle class house with a wireless internet connection and a gas stove. She is proud of me for following my vision for a time on my own without expecting her to do the same. Supposing that investor had not made me that offer, I wonder how long into the winter would I have camped out in my urban cabin? It seems so distant now.
As to the question of cutting living expenses together, my wife and I have more modest plan. We are putting up a clothes line in the back yard.



Tuesday, May 6, 2008

criterion for staying at 821

Multipal levels of criterion for my stay at 821 are emerging: cheep, happy, safe relatively (I'm not there to become a martyr). I want to live in the cheepest place in Baltimore. I want to have an inner sense of happiness. I do not want to be harmed physically.

And here is another that is related to the no physical harm criterion: I want to have some measure of social peace. I want someone to be a partner in prayer. The Milton Montford neighborhood organizer lady is perhaps the closest to that. The Ashford organizer is another supportive voice, but I am not technically in her neighborhood boundaries.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

First act in new house: pray

There was a woman who moved into a scary section of Harlem. The first thing she did in her house was get down on her knees and pray. Sounds like something I'd like to do.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

decent human being

"One must think like a hero to behave like a merely decent human being."
-- May Sarton

My goal in my Bradford Street adventure, is merely to be a decent human being. And yet, my thoughts do seem to take a rather heroic texture. Maybe that is a metaphor for my more ordindary life her in 31st St. To stay decent, I need to keep thinking heroically.

I feel guilty for not being productive.

Friday, May 2, 2008

Police cars

Wednesday I was down at 821, and the police where there. The whole 800 block was blocked off: two cars on the east end and one on the west, just beyond 821. Except for the officers, there ware no people on the street at all.

I wanted to see if there was some problem at 821, a break-in perhaps. So I took the alley on foot to take a look at the back side. When I got there an officer came around the corner and yelled at me, "Hey Boss, What you doing back here."

"I'm planning to buy this house," I replied, keeping my voice down so that not everyone could hear. I worry about staking my claim verbally, they making someone upset, they having them vandalize the place before I even have a chance to move in.

The cop yelled back something in a tone of warning, but I do not know that he said.

Looking back, police presence could be a sign of getting criminal element out of that street, or it could be buisness as usual. Someone seeing me might think I was back there because I was an undercover cop. And that could make me safer perhaps.

I don't know what it points toward.

waiting for a contract

"This wait is killin' me!"

So says my inner complainer. It has been almost a week since my realator sent my last contract pages to the seller, and still they have not sent back a signed contract. He says they are taking longer than he expected. I'm worried that they won't sign. Maybe it is too good a deal, and they know it. Maybe they want to, in Bob the auctioneer's terms, start a bidding war. But no, they have accepted. Odds are they will stick with their word. Or at least that is what I suppose I should assume.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

art house windows and screens

821 Bradford has a cracked window and some torn screens. One way to fix it is to replace. The screens are only about $15 each at the local hardware store on Center Street. But there is a more artsie way. Glue stained glass to the cracked window. Dianna did it and it looks great. A neighbor, Sally, and I came up with a similar idea for the screen: embroider a patch in a bright color. It is something like screen painting.

Sally took me to the Habitat Restore yesterday. She had a bunch of screens in the car and explained that she is into a screen painting revival club. One thing led to another, and that is how we got to the embroidered screen idea.

cool

I'm reading scholars talk about "cool" in the young black man's code of the street. And I'm seeing it in the walk of young black men near Bradford Street. Some strike me as genuinely cool to the bone. Yesterday I was inspired to try walking cool. It is slower, more sensual, very alert, yet casual, sexy, and ready to fight. I mostly relate to the sensuality of it. When you walk like that, life is so sweet, it is ok to die soon. You know you have walked cool, and that is enough.

But I do not plan to walk cool on Bradford Street. No, I plan to walk with prupose, quick and deliberate. I plan to walk like I am minding my own buisness. Not staring at others, but staying alert and watching my back. I am practicing ways of looking back. One is to cross the street, which requires looking back.

My plan is to stay out of fights. The problem with cool on Bradford is that it can get you in a fight. I'll be cool in the privacy of my own house, or in a nice save neighborhood, or in the woods.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

the essence of the superrich is absence

Poem: "Slum Lords" by John Updike, from Americana: and Other Poems. © Alfred A. Knopf, 2001.

Slum Lords

The superrich make lousy neighbors—
they buy a house and tear it down
and build another, twice as big, and leave.
They're never there; they own so many
other houses, each demands a visit.
Entire neighborhoods called fashionable,
bustling with servants and masters, such as
Louisburg Square in Boston or Bel Air in L.A.,
are districts now like Wall Street after dark
or Tombstone once the silver boom went bust.
The essence of superrich is absence.
They like to demonstrate they can afford
to be elsewhere. Don't let them in.
Their riches form a kind of poverty.


The superrich make lousy neighbors...
Thay are never there; they own so many other houses, each demands a visit...
The essence of the superrich is absence.
They like to demonstrate they can afford to be elsewhere.
Don't let them in.

Ok, now it has already been said:
Wealth is freedom to be absent.
If I can afford to be elsewhere, I am wealthy.

Down on Bradford Street, I am very wealthy,
very free to be absent. But by my willingness to absent myself from 31st Street,
I am wealthy there too.

Brandon says that he does not know anyone else who is not financially burdoned: his parents, his parents in law, he and his wife are all living week to week or in debt. His parents in law used to have money, but they baught a huge house then Aaron's dad lost his job.

I like being rich. Like my freedom to be absent. And I want to tell others that it is possible to live within your means. The secret is to know when you are spending on more than you need and be willing to go back to basics: be glad for a roof over your head and drinkable water, some food to eat and clothes on your back. If your clothes are dirty, you are ok if you have a way to hand wash them.

Monday, April 28, 2008

death wish and the choice of life

Last night, I visited Brandon at the bakery. We got high with Dillen and Sara, and Dillen gave me a job slicing bread on Fridays and Saturdays, 2-6. It will start June, the second week.

Brandon asked whether, if I die, the house on Bradford would go to Cindy. I said yes, it is in our will that if either of us dies, all our property goes to the other. That got me thinking about dying. At first, it scared me, the thought of dying down near Bradford, perhaps in some street asault. Fear gripped me as I considered the possibility that I'm fated to die there. I don't like fear, so I shifted to desire. I desired death.

I roused myself from my thoughts to give Brandon this resolve: "Although I am aware of my death desire, I choose life. Before God, if God cares to know, and Brandon, I resolve to stay alive and well."

That felt like a good step.

cold water flat

some of her New York friends gave her a year's salary along with a note: "You have one year off from your job to write whatever you please. Merry Christmas." She decided to devote herself to writing and moved into an apartment with only cold water and improvised furniture.
Harper Lee wrote very slowly, extensively revising for two and a half years on the manuscript of To Kill a Mockingbird

Source: Writer's Almanac.

That is the first I have heard of anyone famous having lived in an apartment with "only cold water and improvised furniture."

That is exactly what I am planning. Of course I plan to make solar warm water for bathing. I'll put eight gallon jug wraped in black plastic in the back yard each day. And for boiling water, I'll make a wood fire in the back yard.

As for imporvised furniture, I already have my eye on a plastic table I saw in a back alley, one with a hole in the middle the top surface. I thought I might make it flat with a board on top.

That, of course, does not make me a writer. For that I will need to dig deep into my own wells.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Cheep living

Cheep. The cornerstone value of my venture into this urban cabin is cheep survival. It is the cheapest house in Baltimore. The house itself is an investment which may like result in capital gains. So that does not count as an expense in the same sense as pure consumption of non-resueables like gas and electricity.

And I plan to live without gas and electric. For food, another non-reuseable, I want to learn more about dumpster diving.

I'm wondering about the viability of cooking with a wood fire. Scrap wood is fairly abundant, given the number of houses that are being remodeled, gutted. I need to avoid wood that is treated or painted as those have fumes. But basic 2by4s would do the job. I have an outdoor grill for a place to burn the wood. I need a saw and axe, but I do not have either. They are kind of expensive to buy, so I'd like to borrow. On the other had, maybe I can justify buying because it is so re-usable. Few things are more re-usable than an axe.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

"As long as you mind your own buisness"... "let's get him."

I was walking along a street near Bradford. I think it was Montford, 800 block. Four young guys were sitting on a step. "Need any thing?" one asked. "No" I said, "I'm just passing through."

"You look like him. Do you know him?" asked a neatly dressed fellow.

"You look like him," repeated another who had a speech impediment and was probably mentally retarded.

"I don't know what your talking about." I said.

"Give me five dollars," demanded the neatly dressed fellow.

"I don't give away money," I replied.

"Let's get him!" Said neatly dressed, as jumped off the step and lunged toward me.

I felt my energy rise. I lifted my hands automatically and shook my head, gesturing that I did not want to fight.

He stopped, then walked away as if nothing had happened. Just then some older guys had come by. Their arrival might have helped. They exchanged some words, or money or something.

I walked away wondering how close I came to getting beat-up. It was broad daylight, 12:00 noon. It was my first time seeing them, as I recall.

The main thing I would do differently next time is walk on the other side of the street and walk fast, like I was minding my own buisness. Not just meandering around or hanging out or checking the place out.

Earlier, in the alley behind the east side 800 Bradford houses, a light skinned man who appeared to be in his 60s walked by carrying two Save-a-Lot bags. I told him I liked Save-a-Lot, and he agreed. "Food is getting expensive," he said. He said he uses the subway to go to his Save-A-Lot branch -- I had not known about. I wish I could remember the name of the place.

He lives on Ashland and his back yard is cati-corner to the 821 back yard. He recommended an alarm system if I am going to be out a lot. 30 a month is cheep, he said. I thought it was too much. Besides, I don't even plan to be using electricity. He said the bars on my place would not be enough to keep them out. I thought to myself that if I don't have anything inside to steal, they will stay away.

As far as safety is concerned, he said the main thing is to "mind your own buisness -- only report crime where you are directly involved."

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Sun articles

http://www.baltimoresun.com/news/opinion/ideas/bal-id.brewery16jul16,1,770673.story

Ten blocks north, on Bradford, there was a shooting in '05 and the sun ran some human interest articles.

I like the woman who says, in the slide show, that she would not move out of the neighborhood. She cares about her neighbors, goes to work, keeps her house clean, gets greeted by children.

Past violent incident

The prosecutor dropped the mandatory five-year gun sentence, and Fowlkes
pleaded guilty to first-degree assault and illegally carrying a handgun.
Fowlkes, then 18, was soon back on the streets -- and back in trouble.

Late at night on July 26, 1999, prosecutors say, Fowlkes was armed again.
On an East Baltimore side street, Fowlkes and another man got into a gun
battle.
Twenty yards away, Carlton Valentine; his brother, Arnell Davis; and their
cousin, Wayne Johnson, were sitting on the steps of Valentine's home at
821 N. Bradford St., drinking beer and trying to escape the stifling summer
heat.
Hearing the shots, the three scrambled off the steps and lay flat on the
sidewalk. "It was like the O.K. Corral," Davis says. "The bullets were
flying." When the shooting momentarily ceased, the men tried to rush
indoors. But more bullets whizzed down the street. One hit Valentine in the
back.
"He told me, 'Brother, I'm shot. I got shot in the back,' " Davis, a forklift
operator, recalls. "Wayne was screaming for help. I said, 'Man, we're going
to get those guys.' "
Valentine, an auto mechanic and father of four, died at Johns Hopkins
Hospital 50 minutes later.
Davis, who identified Fowlkes for police as one of the shooters, was furious
when told of Fowlkes' previous conviction.
"There shouldn't be no plea bargains," Davis says. "It's bad when you can't
sit on your own steps."
Why work? This is a question that perplexes me. We live so far from basic survival. Survival seems remote. But survival is something that would motivate me. So I want to get down to that level: the basic consern for food and shelter.

That is part of the appeal of the cabin. While I am there, I concern myself with survival. I work for survival.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Where I am in charge

I've never really had a house of my own. I went from my parent's place, to a college group-house, to living with the woman I married.

With a house of my own, I can leave it as unfurnished as I want, use as little water as I want, leave the gas and electric disconnected if I want. I can create a house within the house -- Tiny spaces, a corner of a room, a beaten path all my own.

I wonder what will really happen when I am living there rather than just dreaming of it. Will I end up filling spaces?